The Secret is out

that everyone has a secret or is telling a secret......there's a whole lot of secretive talk going on,so I started thinking about secrets.When someone tells you they have one,it sure does peak your curiosity doesn't it?But really if you tell someone than it isn't a secret anymore.

I have many a secret hidden in this pea brain of mine. I have shared many a secret.Many a secret of mine has been shared with the wrong person too.

You ever tell something and you just assume that the person is smart enough to know that you wouldn't want it all over town,but since you don't come right out and tell them that,they decide to spread it.It happens to me all the time.I often share with my closest friends the on-going saga of my mother,and for some reason they decide to tell two friends and so on, and so on. Not that it is a big deal,but I hate it when someone comes up to me with that sympathetic look in their eyes and makes a comment about her,just hoping that I will have some sort of breakdown and divulge everything I know about her.Not because they are concerned,but because they want to know all there is to know so that they can gossip about it. That is the only problem about living in a small area. Everyone knows your business. God forbid you do something wrong and people find out,because you will never redeem yourself here.

I kinda have a secret,but I don't want to say to much about it in case in never comes to pass and then I end up feeling bad for the other person involved. I wouldn't want to let them down:)

I have something going in the mail shortly that is a kinda little secret sorta thing:)

I HAVE NO FREAKING CAMERA YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT ISN'T A SECRET!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUFUS THAT SOLD IT TO ME IS GETTING NEGATIVE FEEDBACK!!!!!!!THAT'S NO SECRET!!!!!!

I love secrets<3

I want to be Queen for just one day

is that too much to ask for?I want to be pampered and waited on.Feed me grapes and fan me with branches.(psstttt I put branches because I don't know how to spell that word for palm leaves. I don't want to spell it like the son's name on Swiss Family Robinson)Whenever I mention this to Dave, he looks at me like I have two heads,like I think that I am special or something.Well guess what? I do think I'm special and why don't I deserve to have everyone running around at my beckon call,getting me this and that,cooking my meals,preparing my snacks............I do it 24/7 almost.Please.................just once.Then I realize that I am fighting a loosing battle.

I think I do too much for my kids.Now when Allyson wants a drink, I tell her to get it herself,nicely though:) She spills the milk,I get angry............so why not just do it yourself the first time.

You know if I was trampy I could get a role on Desperate Housewives.......LOL:)

I'm sure that I am not the only mom who is overworked and underpaid.I wouldn't trade my job for anything in the world though.Girls gotta dream.

My word for the year 2008

is going to be...............drum roll please............................

BELIEVE!

I thought long and hard about what word I would choose.I thought of focus,but I'm not a focusing kinda person.......LOL. It just didn't seem to suit me.Then I thought of achieve,because there are so many things that I want to achieve,but then I had a light bulb moment and realized that if I want to achieve it, I must first believe it.So there you have my word for 2008:)

I want to achieve a goal in my weight, in my creativity,in my over all well-being.I want to learn to accept the things I can't change. Why get down over the turn of events in my life regarding my mom,if I can't do anything about it.I need to BELIEVE that things will be fine and that I will be OK with it all.I might need Dr. Phil to help me or Betty Ford,but I'm going to do it;)

Rewind the tape please

the one titled Julie's Life,and I would like you to go as far back as you can.Back to the days where I was cute,tiny and had long black curls and no gray hair. When my family was functional,when death was for old people,so I thought.When everyone made a point to visit their loved ones and be a part of special occasions.When people were thoughtful and considerate.When people didn't make a hobby out of tearing others apart,but a job of building each other up.

Oh the tape has been erased and there are no back-ups:( Don't mind me,I'm just thinking back.

Do you ever look back at your childhood and smile?Think of things that you did, that your own kids today do not have the privilege of doing,or just don't want to do because it's not as fun as the playstation or PC. Those were the good old days.

I got thinking today about some of the choices I have made in my life,mostly regarding people I have allowed to come into my life,loved and for the most part got nothing in return.Yep,friends......would you pick the same ones if you had to do it over again? Some I would keep,and others I wouldn't. Some of would make sure that I found sooner and others I would hold on to a little tighter.Of all the girls who stood up with me in my wedding,I only have contact really with one,and she is my SIL.I wouldn't necessarily pick the ones that live the closest.Good grief, most of my friends today, I have never met other than on-line,but I talk to them every day and they make me smile. I know they are there if I need them,and well........I'm there even if they don't need me:) I wouldn't necessarily chose the ones that I have the most in common with as I found out later in life that opposites attract. Take Jolene and I,she is a little rock-n-roll and I'm a little country:) but we are one when it comes to the stuff that matters.We talk each and every day,sometimes more than once. We talk about absolutely nothing for the most part.I'm sure that I say things that bug her and vice versa,but we don't remember it the next day.We don't come out and say "I love you" to each other because we don't have to, it is just understood.........plain and simple!!!!!!!

Anyway boring perhaps,but I was feeling a bit reflective today.I cherish my friends both near and afar.The ones I see often and the ones I've never met:)

I'll leave you with a bit of Evan humor........Did you know there was a new version of the Bible,yep I like to call it the New Evan Version Acts 16:31 Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and though shalt be shaved.........LOL I didn't bother correcting him because I thought it was cute. No whether his Awana leader will think so, is a different story.

Back To School

Well the kiddies are all back in school.My house would be quiet if hubby wasn't grinding something in the basement.Oh well, he'll be back to work shortly.

Mamma didn't like getting out of bed this morning,but she did and once the coffee IV was in place all was good in my world.

Evan came down the stairs minutes before the bus left dripping wet.He was trying to spike his hair.Well all he managed to achieve was the wet drowned rat look.Honestly, where did this kid come from:)

I've been scrapping!!!!!!!! YIPPEE, in fact I have like 7 LO's that just are sitting waiting for a title or journaling or Kristina Contes to come and assist me.I am pretty excited about scrapping in 2008. I think once,and I do mean once.......my camera arrives, it will open a new door to me in regards to my scrapping.

BTW, I should get off here and give Jeanette a call and see how she likes my camera. ^&!@#(!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe that 2007 is almost a thing of the past.I better start practicing writing out cheques with 2008.

Did you have a good year?I guess all in all my year was OK. It will go down in history as the year of the LICE! Now I'm telling you that is something that I don't want to re-live anytime soon.I will never call anyone nitpicky again either.

I am looking forward to 2008. I will embrace it with a smile:)

Anyone got any New Year's plans? I guess we are going to my brother and SIL's for a fondue.No one better tell me I'm big or eating too much or they might go home sporting a fondue fork in their eyeball...........ain't that right Nicole?:) It should be interesting to see how it turns out. A lot of different types of personalities coming tonight.I am sure that I will blend well with them all. Those who I don't blend with well..........I'll pretend I do as long as I can cook my food in their pot......LOL.

How about those resolutions.......Are you making any? I seriously am going to try to loose some weight,and if I don't so be it,but I would like to give it a try. I will open that new pilates DVD I bought eons ago and give it a whirl.Sure wish I had carpet instead of hardwood.I will get more creative,and try new things.I will shop ahead of the occasions eg. birthdays and Christmas. I will use up a lot of my scrap stash! I will try to not let my mother and her new life she has set out on bother me.I will blog more often.I will love more. I don't think I could possible laugh more,but I'll try.

Be safe tonight everyone:)

Back after a hiatus

Yep, just like your favorite TV shows take a break,so did I. Not really because I had nothing to report,but because I didn't think anyone would be interested in the boring daily happenings of my life.I love reading other people's blogs,so I will give it another shot.Maybe now that I have high speed I can soup it up a little.............with help from some of my hi-tech friends.

So for those that are following my on-going camera saga........I am happy to report that it is somewhere between here and NJ.YAY!!!!!!!!!!! even after all of the troubles I have had I am still excited to get it. I will not be leaving positive feedback for the seller though:(Get your act together buddy!!!!!!!!!!!

Guitar Hero.........Do you have it? Do you like it? Kyle got one for Christmas and he is rocking out as I type.He calls himself TenaciousK........LOL.I love it when I catch him actually grooving with it.