SUPER NANNY WHERE ARE YOU???????

I am here to tell you that Evan has been home for less than an hour and it is has been one hurdle after another. Who helps with these sort of things? Why is my son so difficult,and demanding.I seriously think he has anger issues and I have never dealt with it and I don't know how.People will tell me that just needs a good stick on his you know what........Well guess what.....done that,after I chased him through the house and out the door. It is -10 or something and him with no coat or shoes on his feet.

I should mention that this all started because I got tired of him demanding I do things without saying please to me.It is just a simple request and he knows his manners,so why not use them? Instead we will engage in a manners standoff,in which I am ultimately the winner,but I end up feeling helpless and sad.I think I am failing in the parenting department with child number 3.I never had any issues with the other two.

I sent him to his room and I sit in the livingroom on the verge of tears while I listen to him scream and holler and kick and threaten to smash his window out.

He always talks nasty to me,and everything is "friggin" this and "friggin" that.He calls his siblings jerks.I am at my wits end here. I don't know what to do!!!!!!! Am I doing something wrong.

Now I should mention that there are moments when he is an angel,other than when he is sleeping. He never ever cuts up these actions with his father.

Sorry for the long boring vent:(

One Proud Mom

Not to much going on in my life lately,other than the fact I have been scrapping and having fun with it:)

Yesterday I had the pleasure of attending the award ceremonies at Kyle's school. He received an award for his marks,and I was so happy:) I was also shocked and saddened by the lack of parent participation in this event.There were kids getting awards with no parents to watch:( The look on Kyle's face when his eye caught mine sitting at the back of the auditorium.......PRICELESS!

My mother kinda hurt my feelings yesterday.She sticky noted me on facebook like 3 weeks ago to tell me that she was going away to her sister's house for a bit.See her sister lives near her new man(insert rolling eyes smilie here).I don't think she is ever coming home,and then she told me yesterday that she had nothing to come home for:( I guess her three children and numerous grandchildren rank lower than her new man.She will return in time to take off to Europe for 6 weeks........oh to be so carefree.

I found that it is better to e-mail camera man through E-bay,he responds pronto.He aske me for my phone number and he would contact me with my tracking number.I am thinking buddy I have left messages for you and my phone number for a week now and you have never responded,why should I think you will this time.Why can't he e-mail me the tracking number????That is because he doesn't have it!He did call me however last night,and was just a sweet as could be,and even thanked me for my patience.He will have a tracking number for me today and will e-mail.....YA RIGHT! I don't think this man knows right from left or has any contact with his customer service. He yet again mentioned sending me the wrong camera.....the one I just sent back to him.I may have a nervous breakdown before this is over.

I am so TICKED

In fact,I'm pissed,and I am so unpissoffable..........LOL how is that for a new word.Kinda sounds like a Czech last name or something.Anyway,for those following my camera saga..........I think I have been had.I was seriously on the verge of tears on the phone with customer service at the E-bay store we won my camera from.There is no record of a camera being shipped out to me,other than the wrong one I received. They guy assured me that it was a good camera.I told him that it might very well be,but it wasn't what I paid for:( In fact, it was a $200 cheaper one.Now come on,who is going to go for that?

I feel worse to think that my hubby saved all of his pocket change and hid it in the basement to buy me this,and now.......................it's gone:(Not that he couldn't of just gone and bought it,but he wanted to surprise me with it.

Oh what to do?????????????

The Secret is out

that everyone has a secret or is telling a secret......there's a whole lot of secretive talk going on,so I started thinking about secrets.When someone tells you they have one,it sure does peak your curiosity doesn't it?But really if you tell someone than it isn't a secret anymore.

I have many a secret hidden in this pea brain of mine. I have shared many a secret.Many a secret of mine has been shared with the wrong person too.

You ever tell something and you just assume that the person is smart enough to know that you wouldn't want it all over town,but since you don't come right out and tell them that,they decide to spread it.It happens to me all the time.I often share with my closest friends the on-going saga of my mother,and for some reason they decide to tell two friends and so on, and so on. Not that it is a big deal,but I hate it when someone comes up to me with that sympathetic look in their eyes and makes a comment about her,just hoping that I will have some sort of breakdown and divulge everything I know about her.Not because they are concerned,but because they want to know all there is to know so that they can gossip about it. That is the only problem about living in a small area. Everyone knows your business. God forbid you do something wrong and people find out,because you will never redeem yourself here.

I kinda have a secret,but I don't want to say to much about it in case in never comes to pass and then I end up feeling bad for the other person involved. I wouldn't want to let them down:)

I have something going in the mail shortly that is a kinda little secret sorta thing:)

I HAVE NO FREAKING CAMERA YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT ISN'T A SECRET!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUFUS THAT SOLD IT TO ME IS GETTING NEGATIVE FEEDBACK!!!!!!!THAT'S NO SECRET!!!!!!

I love secrets<3

I want to be Queen for just one day

is that too much to ask for?I want to be pampered and waited on.Feed me grapes and fan me with branches.(psstttt I put branches because I don't know how to spell that word for palm leaves. I don't want to spell it like the son's name on Swiss Family Robinson)Whenever I mention this to Dave, he looks at me like I have two heads,like I think that I am special or something.Well guess what? I do think I'm special and why don't I deserve to have everyone running around at my beckon call,getting me this and that,cooking my meals,preparing my snacks............I do it 24/7 almost.Please.................just once.Then I realize that I am fighting a loosing battle.

I think I do too much for my kids.Now when Allyson wants a drink, I tell her to get it herself,nicely though:) She spills the milk,I get angry............so why not just do it yourself the first time.

You know if I was trampy I could get a role on Desperate Housewives.......LOL:)

I'm sure that I am not the only mom who is overworked and underpaid.I wouldn't trade my job for anything in the world though.Girls gotta dream.

My word for the year 2008

is going to be...............drum roll please............................

BELIEVE!

I thought long and hard about what word I would choose.I thought of focus,but I'm not a focusing kinda person.......LOL. It just didn't seem to suit me.Then I thought of achieve,because there are so many things that I want to achieve,but then I had a light bulb moment and realized that if I want to achieve it, I must first believe it.So there you have my word for 2008:)

I want to achieve a goal in my weight, in my creativity,in my over all well-being.I want to learn to accept the things I can't change. Why get down over the turn of events in my life regarding my mom,if I can't do anything about it.I need to BELIEVE that things will be fine and that I will be OK with it all.I might need Dr. Phil to help me or Betty Ford,but I'm going to do it;)

Rewind the tape please

the one titled Julie's Life,and I would like you to go as far back as you can.Back to the days where I was cute,tiny and had long black curls and no gray hair. When my family was functional,when death was for old people,so I thought.When everyone made a point to visit their loved ones and be a part of special occasions.When people were thoughtful and considerate.When people didn't make a hobby out of tearing others apart,but a job of building each other up.

Oh the tape has been erased and there are no back-ups:( Don't mind me,I'm just thinking back.

Do you ever look back at your childhood and smile?Think of things that you did, that your own kids today do not have the privilege of doing,or just don't want to do because it's not as fun as the playstation or PC. Those were the good old days.

I got thinking today about some of the choices I have made in my life,mostly regarding people I have allowed to come into my life,loved and for the most part got nothing in return.Yep,friends......would you pick the same ones if you had to do it over again? Some I would keep,and others I wouldn't. Some of would make sure that I found sooner and others I would hold on to a little tighter.Of all the girls who stood up with me in my wedding,I only have contact really with one,and she is my SIL.I wouldn't necessarily pick the ones that live the closest.Good grief, most of my friends today, I have never met other than on-line,but I talk to them every day and they make me smile. I know they are there if I need them,and well........I'm there even if they don't need me:) I wouldn't necessarily chose the ones that I have the most in common with as I found out later in life that opposites attract. Take Jolene and I,she is a little rock-n-roll and I'm a little country:) but we are one when it comes to the stuff that matters.We talk each and every day,sometimes more than once. We talk about absolutely nothing for the most part.I'm sure that I say things that bug her and vice versa,but we don't remember it the next day.We don't come out and say "I love you" to each other because we don't have to, it is just understood.........plain and simple!!!!!!!

Anyway boring perhaps,but I was feeling a bit reflective today.I cherish my friends both near and afar.The ones I see often and the ones I've never met:)

I'll leave you with a bit of Evan humor........Did you know there was a new version of the Bible,yep I like to call it the New Evan Version Acts 16:31 Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and though shalt be shaved.........LOL I didn't bother correcting him because I thought it was cute. No whether his Awana leader will think so, is a different story.

Back To School

Well the kiddies are all back in school.My house would be quiet if hubby wasn't grinding something in the basement.Oh well, he'll be back to work shortly.

Mamma didn't like getting out of bed this morning,but she did and once the coffee IV was in place all was good in my world.

Evan came down the stairs minutes before the bus left dripping wet.He was trying to spike his hair.Well all he managed to achieve was the wet drowned rat look.Honestly, where did this kid come from:)

I've been scrapping!!!!!!!! YIPPEE, in fact I have like 7 LO's that just are sitting waiting for a title or journaling or Kristina Contes to come and assist me.I am pretty excited about scrapping in 2008. I think once,and I do mean once.......my camera arrives, it will open a new door to me in regards to my scrapping.

BTW, I should get off here and give Jeanette a call and see how she likes my camera. ^&!@#(!